Out With The Old and…

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Earlier today, I was rummaging through my mind, trying to find a memory I had misplaced.  You know when you are trying to find something you have lost, you end up finding out instead just how much shit you have lying around.  At first you may think,”If I could only organize this mess, then at least I will have a better chance of uncovering what it was I was originally looking for.”  So you start to categorize, putting like things in neat little groups.  It dawns on you that you are not cutting down on the clutter, and you may even start to get overwhelmed by the sheer magnitude of accumulation.  “Hey, I forgot about this old fear, and I though I let go of this obsession a long time ago.  Is that anxiety and this insecurity really still haunting me?”  So you try a new approach.  “I really don’t need or want most of this shit anyway,” you may think,  so why not start throwing it out.  Easier said than done.

A popular analogy in Buddhism states that the mind is similar to an ocean, and our thoughts to the individual waves.  Even though the waves seem separate from the ocean, ultimately they are one and the same, similar to how each though arises from our minds, seeming to have it’s own reality, but it does not.  It is really just a part of the mind.  Also like the wave that rises up and will eventually disappear back into the water it came from, so too our thoughts are impermanent, going back from whence they came as well.  We begin to suffer when we keep holding on to these thoughts, these fears, this anger, as if they are possessions that define who we are.  They are not.  In fact, they prevent us from being who we really are.  They are ultimately clutter, taking up valuable space.  This space could be better served filled with creativity, with compassion, with love, and perhaps even more important, focusing on staying present.

I think my spring cleaning this year will entail more than just the closets and garage…

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